sometimes i mentally put myself in the position you are in... the only thing i could think of that would get me out of it... depending on what the accusations are... is to say everything they want to hear. lie until you are practically in tears. act like you are angling for an oscar. be the person you never wanted to be, if only for an hour or two. yes you loathe apostates, yes you believe in the kingdom's establishment in 1914, yes you believe that the GB is God's only channel of communication to humankind today... etc... these are, of course, only options if you are being accused of apostacy. if they are accusing you of some other sin that people have witnessed you doing repeatedly, then you could be screwed. but hopefully that isn't the case.
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